Dreams, Purpose, and Impressions

I have previously told of a dream I had in my youth of not being allowed on family property, and my fears that came in a form of a witch. How I had a great desire or impression to face the witch and conquer her. When I did face her it became a great relief to me.

In my teenage years I received my patriarchal blessing. Just like in the Old Testament of Jacob giving his sons their Patriarchal Blessing and of Abraham blessing his family.
http://eom.byu.edu/index.php/Patriarchal Blessings
It is my road map. It tells of being married in the Temple and being a mother but it mostly speaks of watching the world go through changes in preparation for the Lords return. Of how I need to be ready to provide for others in need. I have a great desire to live worthy of these blessings. I try hard each day to obey the commandments and live up to the covenants that I have made.

(I bless you to know that during your lifetime you will witness great changes which will come over the earth as it becomes cleansed and purified and made ready for the return and advent of the Lord, Jesus Christ.  During these times of turmoil, trial, and commotion, your home and your household will be a gathering place, a shrine and a refuge against the evils and the ills of the world. Many will come unto you to find peace, comfort, and all else which you may be able to provide.  I promise you, dear sister, that if you will be generous with these things, that your store shall not be reduced nor impoverished, but shall be actually increased as you bless the lives of those unfortunate people who will come unto you for your help.)

(I bless you to know that after the tempests and the harvest are over, when the earth has been cleansed and purified, that great millennial day of the Savior will come to pass.  This will be a great rejoicing when peace, good will, and love shall prevail over the earth.  I promise you that if you will be
generous with your love, your kindness, and all else with which the Lord may bless you, that the
Savior himself will welcome you and thank you personally for the kindness which you have shown unto His suffering children.)

I always felt the heritage of our family ranch would help in that promise and course. To think the loins I come through and how generations before there was quite a bit of land but as generations came and left, most of the land has been sold off. Only a few of my Grandfathers generation still hung on to a small amount.  My heart and full intention was to have stewardship with all those who had a vested interest in it. And if it be the Lords will, a gathering place for the unfortunate people spoken of in my blessing. I believe the generations who have passed would of found joy and reverence knowing where they once trod, worked, sweat, and loved, could be a gathering spot and refuge in the last days.

 

As my partners or "witch" started to run me off the family property I asked them if they had prayed about what they were doing, if we could meet at the Temple after fasting to see if this is the Lords will on how to treat one another. But that fell on deaf ears.
I asked some others in the family if they could help drawn them into a meeting to get this ironed out. I don't know if any tried and got the same response I did.  Only the Lord knows.
A nephew once texted me that I care more for cattle that my own children and a son of mine wrote me that I should walk away from the ranch. Those words hurt me deep. Cattle to me are my personal symbol of fulfilling the Lords promises. With cattle you need land, feed, and water. That is what I need also to provide for others. As for Nicoll land, it became easier to walk away as I read the story of Joseph being sold by his brothers, only to be in position to feed many of the Lords children along with his own father, brothers and all else in his family.

I have prayed for guidance from the Lord. I tried to find resolve with my partners but their answer consisted of me betraying my husband. After more than a year I ran out of ideas to present to the Lord. One morning as I fell to my knees I told the Lord "I put full faith into your hands, if I am to have a gathering place I can no more see how to accomplish it. Please show me the way." That day a wind blew a For-Sale sign off a truck we had for sale and Tom put it in the window of our old house to keep it from blowing away. By day's end we had people calling the house. With the sell of the house we now have an option to purchase property and move forward in preparations of fulfilling our blessings.
Tom's Patriarchal Blessing also talks of his work in the last days, so beyond our love for each other and our believing in the covenants we have made in the temple with the Lord, we also have like missions in the last days. Anyone that can suggest that I even give up one of those needs to pray, rethink, and maybe repent.

Man can frustrate the Lords plan but he cannot stop it. All will be accomplished. Blessing will come to those that are prepared to serve in any position. I am going to do all I can to fulfill my blessings and purpose. I will do all in my power to be worthy of the opportunity to have the Lord come and personally thank me. I would rather be found righteous in the Lords eyes that right in mans eyes.

I know in my dream that I faced the witch and was once again was on Nicoll property. I believe the purchase of other property is all I have left. It will satisfy my patriarchal blessing but I also believe I will be welcomed back one day to the property of my heritage. It will take resources we could of used else where but we know a gathering place is foremost important. The Lord is directing our feet and we trust him to provide. He has already showed us in the most simplest act, the wind, what we need to do, I know He will help us accomplish the rest.

We all have purpose and promise while we walk the earth. It is up to us to find out what it may be in each season of our life. It is also up to us to support each other in their purpose and not be caught
hampering it.

Ephesians 6:18-20King James Version (KJV)

18 Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints;

19 And for me, that utterance may be given unto me, that I may open my mouth boldly, to make known the mystery of the gospel,

20 For which I am an ambassador in bonds: that therein I may speak boldly, as I ought to speak.

Fear and Lies

Fear they say brings either of two reactions. Fight or flight.

What kind of fear would bring on fight? To me it is the fear of lesser life. If what ever is pursuing me will, if possible make my life less than it was by taking those I love, my life, my property, my liberties. I turn to fight for what is right. I fight when  I have half a chance to preserve my life and that which I can protect.

Fear that brings on flight is the kind that I believe if I lay low it will pass by, be forgotten. Liberty or objects I can live without.

I have face both fears. I fought and lost. I turned to flight. I was given a new life, a new house to hide away until what I feared forgot me or moved on. Or so I thought.

Tom came home with court papers today from Pinal County Court. In those papers was listed my address. My new to me house. I am not so naive to believe my address couldn't be found but I believe in privacy. Even though it is easy to find out information like this and so much more.  I just can't stock people. What drives people to do this?

What boggles my mind is the one doing this search says he fears my husband. Him and his little group fear my husband will kill them.
If that is true do you keep poking the bear. Do you provoke that you fear or do you stand at the ready when it strikes. I just can't believe that you can fear something so much that you harass it constantly. Am I the only one that resorts to flight.
This is down right harassment. Nothing short of it. Bullying that comes from deep down in the dark side that most human beings don't have or few have learned to control.

Can you imagine living everyday stocking every move someone makes so you can pursue them in the courts. To put them away. I have told how he interfered with a case that had nothing to do with him but he used everything in his arsenal to try to put Tom in prison.  He sent everyone in the family the police report so they to could judge Tom as a mad man. I am so happy or elated that the Judge saw past the lies and judged worthily. And the few family members that looked at the police report and realized that it was not both sides of the coin. That police reports are written by the officers and not by the witnesses. The witnesses don't get to proof read or sign the statements for correctness. The officers write what "they" heard.

Please take the time to read about bullying. They can't be satisfied in pushing you down, or pushing you away, they have to make sure that all others feel about their victim the way they see them.

I don't know who is the biggest bully of them but I know with all my heart who started the bullying. He has been doing it to me all my life.


When does a lie become a truth? When it is said over and over. When it is said to others and they believe it. When the only truth you know are lies.

Here are a few lies from the court papers.

   

They don't own the ranch. They only own the cattle. The land is owned by the whole family. When you read or hear the words Nicoll Brothers Ranch LLC it is cattle and some equipment.  Which I am in equal partnership in.  When you read or hear Chris Nicoll he has as much ownership as my kids, and all those that can call Don Carlos and Ethel Nicoll grandfather and grandmother. 

Wow. I got to admit I haven't read the police report so I don't know if Cody lied or if the sheriff who took the report did. But I guess I will have to read it now.  Maybe I can get Cody to send me a copy of the report like he did to anyone else that would take it from him. I know the gun was not pointed at anyone but Billy. Two days before this date Billy threatened Tom by saying he was going to get his gun and kill him. The day Tom pistol whipped Billy he felt threaten by Billy and he wanted Billy out of his office.so he pulled an unloaded gun.  Billy left, Tom ran and locked Billy out.  Billy returned and kicked the office door open in which it hit Tom in the face.  That is when Tom hit him over the head with the butt of the pistol.  At no time was Tom mad at anyone.  He along with all of us was were emotional charged. I do know I was a witness and not a victim. I do know in America we are to be innocent before proven guilty. And what is ironic is Cody profession is to uphold that law and not use it against you. At that time Tom had not been charged. Now the case is closed and all Tom got was disturbing the peace.

First Cody was in Apache County but he was not at work he was  at the ranch along with Don. 

Second Tom was not up there that weekend. Jesse was up there with three other men and their children, plus two of Jesse' scouts. Jesse did drive up to the ranch but realized that the trailer he had in tow wouldn't make the sharp turn into the ranch area so he drove off, then thought he could park outside the fence to load my cement planters and drove back. At which time Don came to see what Jesse was doing. And yes Jesse glared at him.

We have witnesses that will throw these lies under the bus and I pray we get the opportunity to use them.

Don't you just love the part "and beat his wife". Oh wait, Tom is a real loser, he has a lot of money, 5 houses in different cities, his own business, and many vehicles.

What the heck.  Low life if every I married one.(I am smiling to think one is a complete lie and the rest are some sort of insult)

The generator spoken of was and is Tom's.  It was found and recovered out at the big mill as they were using it there.  The tires and hitch had been removed.  It was not in his yard.  Tom and I do not know where Cody's house or yard is.  We have not and have no desire to look up on public records or in other words "stock him". 

So the Judge left out the most important word. I guess you can read into anything if you you want. What this boils down to is Tom's first amendment right being violated.  If you are violated by what someone says about you then take it to court.  Charge them with slander.  How in the heck do you get a restraining order against them having an opinion about you. Easy enough if your buds with a judge.  Then the judge leaves out the perfect word according to Cody.  Now Tom is suppose to know what it means when it doesn't say what it means.  

Hell in a hand basket, that is all I got to say about how this world works now a days.

Cody says over and over again in the court papers that he fears Tom will kill him, yet his restraining order restrains Tom from talking about him.  So are we talking character assassination.  Pride.

One thing I do know about lies, there are two kinds. Those said or implied and those of omission.
I won't be party to both. I won't bare false witness and I won't stand by silently as they are put forth.
We know where liars go. And it isn't hanging on the telephone wire. But your pants could be on fire.

I know the truth will set you free. But what of lies believed? Lies of omission? I was told by a nephew that if I be nice he would tell the truth to clear me of an accusation  against me. Will my
partners that hold the truth in high esteem come forward or do we have to be nice for that also?
Luke 6

 27 ¶But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you,

 28 Bless them that curse you, and pray for them which despitefully use you.

I do pray for them. It is easier than stocking them mentally and physically.  If only from the first we could of sat down and talked this out.  I truly feel sad that people have to live in such turmoil that is self inflicted.